LAX is the most fucking ridiculous thing ever. Mostly when you are traveling with children and they make you take your infant out of the stoller so they can x-ray this very dangerous object, and at this same time I have to take my shoes off, my 3 yrs old shoes, and thank god the baby isn't wearing any shoes. Then they start asking what is in the sippy cups... "water" that would be what I keep in my kids sippy cup. FUCKING BULLSHIT... THAT IS WHAT LAX IS.

I jog... well I was jogging and then my period started, then I got sick so I was taking it easy. Then Tarzan told me there was another baby in my belly, so I started jogging again. I dont diet, and I am breastfeeding so I am just trying to cut back on the junk food. UGH!!!

TML works until god nows when in the morning. The kids and I are asleep when he arrives home, but for whatever reason the last two nights or should I say mornings he has brought me tacos, and I get up and eat all of them, then go back to sleep. WTF

By the time Tarzan was 7 months old I was 128 lbs. Benny is on the verge of being 8 months old and I am 25 lbs away from my pre prego weight. WTF

In my efforts to regain my pre-pregnancy body I refuse to buy bigger clothes, so as of right now I'm not doing allot of shopping. I also refuse to wear clothes that are to big for me. So as I sit at my computor the only thing that I am wearing that fits is my nursing bra, and my underwear. The tank top I am wearing is to short because my boobs are so big, and my skirt, well honestly it is just to small. So I am so worked up about going to the states I think I have given myself the shits... I guess in hopes that my clothes will fit a little better.

The kids and I are headed to Oregon..... It is HOT here and we are ready to go. Know one has met my latest kid, and he is super cute and super smiley and Tarzan, well he is a force. I LOVE them so much!!

We will first be in Portland for about a week, then we will be with my mom and who knows how long that will last, then we will go back to portland and then back to TML.

TML promised he will do the trip with us next year. The first few days without him I feel like I could die, and I am so stressed out about customs in LAX. So the first day is the hardest, but we will be OK.

I am glad to see the high season coming to an end. My thoughts on this last season, a LOT of lonely middle aged women, and Alaskens are worse then Texans! I have been in Zihua for years and at then end of each season I have made new friends had really good conversations with a ton of really awesome interesting people. Not this year, met one really nice guy...... and the rest of the people I have met this year glad to see them go, and I hope they aren't back next season.

The phrase that I heard way to much of this year, "What happens in Zihua, stays in Zihua."

What the fuck is that?!?!?!?

If you are doing shit that you wouldn't want people back home to know about, then don't fucking do it.

I know for myself, and for my life. If there is something that I am embarrassed of or feel the need to keep a secret from people, then I probably shouldn't be doing it.

It is hot where I live. Even when it is cold it is hot. So I am tired of looking at fat chicks in half shirts, and hairy men in tank tops or even worse topless. There are stores that specialize in clothes for the heavier population and in these stores they sale clothing to keep you looking presentable. I don’t have a problem with people being comfortable, just if you aren’t a super model, a half shirt or a bikini probably isn’t something that you should be wearing. Would you walk around town in your bra?

Also the other day I saw a large hairy man walking around with out a shirt on… he didn’t appear to be drunk, so I don’t know what he was thinking. The latest rant!