I found the solution to boredom….. Sex! The Mexican Lover I think is getting annoyed because all I have done this whole week is bother him for sex. He looks really tired, hahaha!

So Rai has lent me every episode of NIP / TUCK, damn dude I miss T.V. shows from the United States. If you have cable there is quite a few channels that don’t dub all of the T.V. programs, but the really good ones are normally dubbed and I don’t have cable so this is the way it goes.

Tarzan is in the midst of a growth spirt or something because all his punk ass wants to do is sleep.

I wish I had something entertaining to write about… ugh! Life will go on.

I am broken, yesterday after I was at the Dr. for my little check up for being prego. I fucking tripped on the sidewalk and broke my foot. I didn’t even make it one block from the doctor’s office. Then my stupid ass was like yeah it hurts but it will be ok, and we drove more then an hour away to eat dinner, granted dinner was delicious, but during the time it took us to drive there, eat dinner, and drive back my foot had swollen in to this monstrous mess. Went to the hospital and the doctor on duty is one of my students and he took the x – rays and let me know that my foot is broken…. And then the doctor on call to take care of broken bones and what not is friends with my mother – in – law so lucky for me this didn’t take as much time as it could have, but now I have a big cast that I have to wear for 6 weeks, the hottest time of the year is a approaching rather rapidly. I kind of wish I was in Brookings. The worst part is that I can’t put any pressure on my foot and I don’t have any crutches. Really I feel bad for Tarzan.

Finals will be over tomorrow and Semana Santa will be here soon. So first I will have a break from school, then I will have a break from work! Gracias Dios

Right now I am so overwhelmed with life…. I am in the last week of school for me. For those that don’t know I take classes online threw Lane Community College. I am working on progression, because I want allot more in life then what I have right now.

I started a new job, as an English teacher at a preschool! UGH! That is all I have to say about that.

I am pregnant…

Finally I don’t think I am spending enough time with Killian, and Then Mexican Lover is complaining that I am not spending enough time with him

I almost forgot I already had a job to begin with, so for people that have known me for a longtime this is a very normal pattern for me to fall into.

Oh ya, there is more. I go to just a few people’s houses and cut hair on the side.

I feel like I am getting old and I don’t know how well I am adjusting to all of the changes. I’ll adjust and everything will be OK.

Soon I will be back in the states were I can eat whatever,I want because I am really fucking tired of Tacos Al Pastor.

So The Mexican Lover has pulled is act together and he is being very nice and positive. So here is the plan, we are going to have this baby here in Mexico. I am a little bit nervous. Tarzan and I will be going back to the states I think for about a month this summer and hangout with everyone and my mom will be officially moving out of the house she has been living in for over 20 years. I won’t be able to help out very much but I will at least be able to rent a storage unit and put all of my stuff in it. What else…. Then Tarzan and I will be returning to Zihua to hopefully have a very healthy baby. My due date is Sept 26, and I am thinking that the baby will come sometime for the first week in Oct. So if you want to come and visit us wait until Nov., because Oct. is hurricane season.

I had Tarzan on the most beautiful day in August in Portland Oregon. Oct. is a rough month down here. I have to stop thinking about it or I am just going to stress myself out.

OOPS! what happened with your ice cream

Tarzan and Abuela

Tarzan and some sunglasses

I know that Tarzan isn’t in a car seat in this picture… but he rides in one. Please, don’t send hate mail.

I take Tarzan to school, just a little bit but he is an only child and he really enjoys being able to go and play with his friend’s everyday. When I pick him up from school his hair could be combed in any direction. So here are some photos.

Everything is OK..... I am a little bit hormonal. I also need to remember that he is also dealing with things in his own weird way. I am not the only one that is going threw changes right know. I am super stressed out, and just trying to get my head together about everything and trying to stay rational.

Last night TML and I had a big fight and some very unfriendly things came out of his mouth. That is how he deals with any kind of argument, by saying hurtful things and then later acting like nothing is wrong. I don’t know how much more I can take or even how much more I am willing to put up with. I am in a really difficult situation. I am 2 and half months pregnant with my second child. And after the experience with Tarzans biological father I really don’t have any faith in the idea that people in general know how to act. I don’t want this blog to be a forum for me to complain about, but I have know idea how I am suppose to handle this situation.

I feel bad for my houseguest and my good friend Rai who have to hear me vent. Rai suggested counseling, but we live in Mexico so I can only imagine how that might possible go. The counselor would look at me a say politely “señora, do you not understand your place, you are suppose to bow down and let your husband walk all over and take advantage of you and you are suppose to treat him like his is some kind of a god.” I am very American; So I don’t know how well this would go over with me. I like to think that I am a very strong American woman. So will this be my downfall. I don’t think so.