That is what's going on... Stressful YES. I feel like I am taking a huge step backwards, I am depend it upon everyone I know right now, for everything. I am highly motivated and so ready to go back to work and start generating money so I will NOT be depended upon anyone. I know that I can do it, and once things start rolling, they will keep rolling and I will be taking many huge steps forward. It is getting started. I am starting all over with 2 kids, so I need to get the ball rolling.