Heat

Spring has arrived and so has the heat. In the last couple of days you can defiantly feel the change in the weather. My seasonal allergies are in full effect, I don’t have a voice, and I am having other issues. I am struggling with the idea of going on home for the summer. I love Brookings in the summer; I love the rivers and all of the wilderness. It is also important to me that my kids get to spend some time with my family. What I don’t love is fighting with my mom. I love my mom and I understand that she has been threw a lot in the last 5 years. If I go home I am going to want to work a little, like 3 or 4 serving shifts a week. Mostly because I like to work, I miss working. I miss having the power that goes along with having my own money. I know that if I went back to Brookings there are a handful of jobs that I could just return to, Brookings has seasonal work, and since I don’t want to be a fisherman I will be there during the right season.

I don’t know what the fuck I am going to do; I would like to go to Brookings and dick around a little. Try to make it to the river most everyday, takes the boys camping. Maybe my sister-in-law will get over whatever her issues are and my kids and her kids can hangout. Tarzan and my nephew are only a couple of months apart.

What I am worried about is my mom and being away from TML, and having the boys away from him for very long, So I guess if I can go to Brookings long enough to work then I want to go, but if I can’t go and work then I am just going to deal with the summer in Zihua.